Holiday FREAK OUT

I am freaking out....no..for real im am completely FREAKING the hell out...So we got our christmas tree last night and i decorated it with my mom... and it made me think that i am leaving next week...and i do not know if I can do this...I really don't know if I can handle this leaving for 6 months thing...I don't know if I can handle being away from my friends & family and my Canada for 6 months...I mean how bad is snow?? without it we would just be living in a 24 hour summer world..and no one wants that....I DON'T...What am i gonna do on christmas?? new years eve?? im gonna spend it over there...no snow no x-mas festivites Canada style...


Am i being a baby?? After all, im a grown woman.. I should be able to handle this kind of situation , i accepted the job in the first place...and then im thinking.. was punta cana the right choice?? should have I taken that contract in Mexico...would it have been better? more money?? more tourists?? more experience...?? But afterall, its not like no one has ever done this before, millions of people would dream to have a job like mine, and are applying daily, just to get a 6 months vacay and pay...so i shouldn't complain.. i got a job that many would kill for...oh my god.. i do not know what the heck is going on, but i am really freaking out...I got my plane ticket 3 days ago...and that's when i actually hit me, that i will be leaving. I was excited in the beggining i don't know whats happening nowThe last thing i wanna do is leave worried & unprepared..I am in this weird.. nostalgic mood right now...where I feel like im trapped...never felt it before but..next week is too soon...WAY too soon, Maybe if i left in Mid january, i would have felt better...The funny thing is, I am seeing myself freak out, i am seeing myself trying to jepordise everything on purpose, how ridiculous am i?? Maybe i was'nt ready for this afterall..But if I stay here..What am i going to do..continuing working my 9-5 in Mtl, wich is gonna lead me to nothing....Jesus i hope this is the good ol' "cold feet" symptom...Sighs...

The big announcement

So I got an e-mail last night stating that i have to start my contract earlier than i though. Instead of leaving January 11th, it's necessary for me to leave very soon..because of the high season, and they need me ASAP...This is Dominican Republic by the way, wich is my choice, because Mexico I just wouldnt feel THAT safe just yet...anywhos.



Prior to my departure for the January 11th, i had made a list of my paychecks that i would recieve and the money that i had to put ie: My visa, My phone bill, $ money back to my close ones. And i calculated that by the time we get to january i would have enough economized for me to go and have a safe and fun trip and i would pay everything and everyone that i need to settle. And wouldn't have no worries on my mind. Leaving me EXTRA cash to spend on a new laptop & a blackberry so i can use it in Punta Cana.


So now they want me 5 WEEKS EARLIER than schedualed...thats 5 potential paychecks!! wich means, i have 2 weeks left to economize ANY money that i recieve from work, try to work around it and omg...ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!aM I SCREWED PEOPLE!??!?! i think soooooooooooooooooo!!The worst part of all this..? I wont be spending Christmas and New Years Eve with my close friends & family ...wich is gonna be very hard for me...


This throws everything off schedule..EVERYTHING..IF I WERE TO LEAVE IN JANUARY that wouldnt have been a problem!!!So if anyone knows, anyone that is looking for people to work for a short period of time..(after 5 cuz i work during the day) LET ME KNOW!! i am in serious need of cash...Money...it can make you the happiest person on earth, but it can destroy you in 5 seconds....

Where is the money tree people?!?

How It All began....

I've been visiting the dominican republic for the 2nd time this year. And i got offered a job to work there at the hotel. They would have paid my housing, my food, and they would give me a salary with all the benefits and health inssurances of course. But i would have had to start right away and not come back, as i did last week. So obviously I didn't accept the job in Punta Cana. As i returned, e-mailes were exachanged between the bosses and they offered me the job again..

I got a phone call yesterday from Sunquest Vacations, offering me a position as a Destination Representative at one of the resorts in MEXICO. I would have to choose from los cabos, cancun, puerto vallarta. The housing would be provided of course, and same concept as Punta cana. Except I have never been to Mexico and don't know a single soul over there. But it was the same thing for me at punta cana, and yet i still managed to make friends in less than a week. So that won't really matter. Im going to read all the paper work of Mexico This evening, as i have an apt with the employer.

So basicly what's the point of all this note..? Well i'd like to say that I am definitly taking one of the jobs...wich means i will be leaving our beautifull country Canada(WOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!) in less than 2 months...ahhh there we go...feels so much better now to let it out..Now, who has been to both Mexico & Dom Rep.? Wich is better, why, safer, and etc..let me know...


Dom. Republic?? Mexico??